So basically there was this guy I was online dating that I shouldn’t have. His name is Charles he’s 27, I am 17. Basically everything fell apart and he really hurt me. I wasn’t good enough. Now I’m finding it hard to look at pictures of him or to see his myspace. It really shouldn’t bother me I know. I don’t love him anymore but the wounds are still deep. I still cry and wonder why I wasn’t good enough. I wanted him to accept me. He wouldn’t.

He uploaded new pictures the other day. He only used to upload pics when I used to beg him for months. He uploaded a pic of a girl whom I know likes him. I feel like he does and says certain things to hurt me. It makes me cry, I mean i shouldn’t still be crying over this guy. He’s not worth it, but it hurts. It’s feels like I failed. I tried! I tried so hard! But I never made him happy.

I was talking to Kodi about this last night, it’s really sad to have to talk to the man I love about an ex. He shouldn’t have to listen to me talk about it because i shouldn’t be thinking about it.

The only good thing about Charles was I knew that if I needed a place to go he’d have a home, food, and a bed for me.

Kodi doesn’t. That scares me. I mean it’s not Kodi’s fault he’s only 20 but…I need ot find security. It’s not in me or Kodi.

I have no where to go…I’m lost I guess.