Losing a friend really hurts, and knowing it’s my fault and I caused everyone the pain is even worse I feel like such a failure. I’ll admit there was a love triangle going on between Kodi, Shawn and I. Shawn broke it off I guess. He refuses to talk to me anymore. He ended our friendship in an email which Kodi had to read to me because Shawn refused to tell me himself (I didn’t have a computer at the time).

Basically (a summary of the first email) since I think he acts busy just like everyone else and he just disappoints me. He also thinks he’s getting in the way of my relationship with Kodi. He didn’t give me a chance to tell him that I was picking Kodi but I wanted to remain friends with him. And that I’d try harder not to depend on him like I do Kodi.

The second email he said that there’s no way I can contact him now, his phones are going to be changed and he won’t answer anything I send through yahoo.

That’s it in a nutshell, I just lost one of the best friends I ever had, I’m such an idiot.